1st one on one session with Jennica

Where to start on this dance of journaling today! I had such an amazing session today. I feel like I am on cloud 9 to say the least. TRE is different in each session. None of them look alike. Jennica guided me into the session after we did the exercises and my body took over from that point. At some points I felt like I was massaging my body. At other points a lot of tremoring through my hips and my chest and my diaphragm was definitely involved.

I felt very safe with Jennica and our space that we created. Being with someone while tremoring is fabulous! I really let go today, because I felt safe and supported, not only from Jennica, but from my spirit guides as well. More on this down below.

I definitely had some diaphragm movement as stated above which can be very tiring on your body and I have to protect my neck. I use a little pillow. Jennica checked with me to see if I wanted to try something different so we put a roll underneath where my contraction was coming from. This was a game changer. I felt so much more supported in my body and from there my body did its thing and moved the way it wanted.

I will now be exploring some more props as I progress through TRE on my own. It really gave me the support I needed. This healing is about me and what makes my body feel good. I am totally beginning to understand that it doesn’t matter at all what anyone else has going on. It is so important to listen to your body in your space and follow it. Listen to it. Be embodied. Your body will not steer you wrong.

I had an amazing experience towards the end of the session while I was integrating. I felt the most peaceful, yet pressure and weight in my hands. It is hard to explain. I felt heaviness in my hands and a grounding that I have never experienced before. My hands were actually heavy/weighted on the ground. I have never felt anything like this before in my life! At least, that I can remember!

It felt safe and supportive and then I realized what was happening. My spirit guides were with me. They were pressing onto my hands and helping me to be/stay grounded so I could open up on thumb and pinky finger. Open up my hand! As they held my hand softly yet securely I played with opening up that space. It was really beautiful. My hands are always typing or doing and they are used to being IN like a clench fist.

Whatever reason this happened I felt so supported with Jennica and with my guides that I had so much peace and I felt so grounded and present. I felt an inner knowing that I need to open and they helped me to do that. Exploration in my life right here! I envision myself always clenched. I don’t want to be, but that is what I see as I type this. The real Eileen wants authenticity. Giving of myself to others and being there for others in complete authenticity and also letting them be their for me! Not holding onto anything, but just being in my space. That is my work…opening up my soul and spirit. That is where my light shines. Stop holding on. Stop clenching and dance. I am doing this….as each day goes by I see space where there was none. The dance is where it is at.

It was so friggen amazing!

Staying with the sensation for the time I did as I trusted my body and enjoyed the feeling of being supported I trusted and just let myself feel what was happening. The sensations in my body, the heaviness of my hands. The complete letting go of my body and feeling something totally different was beyond words.

Important takes-

PROPS

SENSATION