I am Safe?

I just completed my first shake after training all by myself and I realized one very important thing. I do not trust myself to go deep by myself. I am very fortunate to have two wonderful people who I practice TRE with on a regular basis and when I am with either one of them I can go completely inward and deep. I feel safe with both of them and as I write this I am beyond grateful that I have these two ladies with me. That I can trust these two with my heart and my pain says a lot about them, but it also say a lot about me. Why do I not trust myself? Or is this just my spirit guiding me to keep myself safe and knowing when I can completely let go and when I cannot?

Whatever it is I am good with it, because I know I will get the answers I seek here. Right now I think it is a little of both. I have learned that I can deeply trust people. Not all, but my close group…YES.

I know that I do not trust me 100% yet. And I know that will come.

As for my physical body. I feel great. I did a lot of leg shaking today and hip shaking, especially on my left side. I learned that I do not need the alarm…that is enough to shake me up! LOL. I will not do that again! I feel very alive and good in my body. When I came up I recited three statements to myself, because I knew I wasn’t feeling 100% safe by myself…

EILEEN YOU ARE WHOLE

EILEEN YOU ARE SAFE

EILEEN YOU ARE LOVED

I also did some embodiment work at the end and that felt really good. To see and be in my yoga room alive and present. I did do my yoga practice before hand so I was definitely ready to go and go I did.

I observed a lot today and listened to my spirit to guide me.

I am so grateful for this practice and this healing.